just thinking

inanimate objects


YOU ARE THE PICTURE OF WHAT I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE IN MY LIFE FOREVER

HOWEVER EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT MINE AND CANT BE (for whatever reason)

IT IS ENOUGH FOR ME THAT YOU EXIST!

I AM GLAD THAT I HAVE YOU (SOMEWHAT) IT IS BETTER THAN NOTHING.

YOU DON'T REALIZE THE POSITION YOU PUT ME IN WHEN things did not transpire the way

we planned

IF YOU WERE ANYONE ELSE I WOULD BE PISSED. I JUST CAN'T BE MAD AT YOU.

BUT TO BE HONEST YOU HAVE ALWAYS BROKEN ALL OF MY RULES. WHEN YOU CALL I COME.

LIKE A FUCKING DOG

WHEN I SEE YOU I AM ELATED AND RELIEVED

FOR SOME REASON EVERYTIME I SEE YOU I THINK ITS GOING TO BE THE LAST TIME

THERE HAS TO BE A REASON FOR THAT ..MY TAKE ON THAT IS THAT WE WERE TOGETHER

IN ANOTHER LIFE AND I LOST YOU SO WHEN I FOUND YOU AGAIN I GET PANICKY

I GUESS THAT IS WHY THEY SAY LOVE SICK. I JUST DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO

LOVE (SOMETIMES) IS AN INVOLUNTARY MOTION AND THAT KINDA SUX YOU

CAN NOT HELP WHO YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH IT FIGURES I WOULD FALL WITH SOMEONE

like YOU!

THIS IS NOT MAKING ANY SENSE I NEVER WAIT AROUND FOR ANYONE AND I NEVER

GO BACK AN EX IS AN EX FOR A REASON EVEN THOUGH OTHERS MIGHT SEE IT DIFFERENTLY

I SEE IT THE WAY IT MAKES SENSE IN MY HEAD AND THAT MAKES SENSE TO ME

ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE IVE SEEN THOSE DAYS LET ME GET EVERYTHING STRAIGHT AND THEN IT MAY

DIFFERENT WITH NO DISADVANTAGES WE CAN SEE STRAIGHTER TO SEE IF THIS HAS A CHANCE

THEN THERES THE TICKING CLOCK IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD WHEN YOU "HUG" ME

YOU SAY EMOTION & EMPATHY LIKE ITS A BAD THING. ITS NOT.......

SOME PEOPLE ARE NOT EVEN CAPABLE OF EMPATHY

DO YOU KNOW HOW LUCKY YOU ARE?

IT IS NOT LIKE IM HOMELESS (THANK GOD)

IT IS NOT LIKE YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR ME

I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY SELF AND MY CHILDREN.

I NEVER ASKED YOU FOR ANYTHING UP UNTIL 2010.

I DO NOT WISH TO PUT YOU ON THE SPOT

I ALSO NEVER WISHED THAT YOU WOULD FAIL AT ANYTHING NOR WILL I EVER.

I WISH ONLY THE BEST TO YOU AND WHAT EVER YOU DO

DOES THE EMOTION REALLY EXIST FOR ME OR IS IT JUST EMPATHY

OR AN EXCUSE BECAUSE IT MIGHT INTERFERE

WITH OTHER THINGS AS WELL(YOUR SECURITY BLANKET)

I LEFT MINE BEHIND AND THE ONLY THING I GUESS

YOUR ATTATCHED TO I CAN PROVIDE WHENEVER/WHATEVER YOUR NEED.

DO YOU NOT KNOW BY NOW THAT THERE ARE CERTAIN THINGS THAT I DO NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO DO

BECAUSE I STILL THINK THAT THERE IS SOMETHING WAITING FOR US

AM I CRAZY OR PERCEPTIVE

THERE IS SUPPOSED TO BE A SURPRISE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE A CELEBRITY HONESTLY

AT THIS POINT IM CONFUSED YOU ARE IN THEN YOU ARE OUT WE HERE THEN WERE GONE

LIFE IS VERY SHORT I AM GOING TO LIVE LIKE I WISH TO AND JUST DO WHAT I DO

AND EVENTUALLY IF YOU WANT TO RIDE ALONG SIDE THATS FINE BUT I WILL NOT ALLOW

MYSELF THAT FANTASY ANYMORE THE ONLY TIME I WILL PERMIT MYSELF TO THINK OF YOU

IS WHEN WE ARE ALONE...

TOGETHER AND APART YOU MUST ADMIT WE KIND OF HAVE A RADAR LOVE THING GOING

BEFORE WE TALKED LAST TIME I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU THE WHOLE NIGHT SO STRANGE

HOW THAT FEELS ITS LIKE TELEPATHY ALMOST BUT AS STRANGE AS IT IS I LIKE IT

I REALLY THINK IM JUST PERCEPTIVE OF THE FUTURE. BUT WHAT DO I KNOW